Holidays are here again.........here to make me get bored to the core!!But its not the usual holidays like the previous ones.In earlier ones i have always enjoyed to the fullest the first few weeks till i got bugged up by 'just enjoying'.This holiday is the last one after which i will have a reason to get back to my college......to enjoy the few more left over months of innocence!!Yes,my college life is going to get over....and the next holidays i get are the final tatasss to all my friends!The very thought of this is killing me!
I have never thought I am going to miss my college life as much as my school days because I have had some real tough time with people here @ coll.Starting from my very first year when my own classmates boycotted me for attending a class and the the times where i had some cold exchange of words with some of my classmates,life has never been simple since I have started my coll life. I have always been putting myself in various kinds of troubles knowingly or unknowingly.But hey trust me guys,even I had come to college with the dream of not only doing well in academics,of not only earning a good name from teachers,of not only getting a good job,but also to make great friends.Till now I had thought though I have done pretty well in academics and all....I was lacking in making good friends.But as the days of leaving college is nearing....i wonder y am i feeling so bad,so melancholy,feeling as if something is about to go.....something is about to leave me forever.Thinking on it deeply,i have come to understand that it is only because of my friends I am feeling this.Yes,even I have made some really good friends.Friends who are and will be there whenever i will need them.I do not need to name them because if they are reading this I am sure they very well understand whom all I am speaking of :) So,hey guys..........I have no words to thank you......I just want to say I LOVE U ALL.....and thanks for being there by my side.I know I have many times spoken harsh words.....but it was all because I expected a lot from u all.
Having said about my friends...........I feel i am not yet ready to leave college so soon.I had just started enjoying it,started making new friends,started interacting with all my classmates making me believe that some are even better than me!!!I just want the next 3 months of coll to keep going and going never to end.Don't want to face the reality that "All things that start have to end someday".
Though i know i will have to accept this fact sooner or later......i just want the last few moths to go really nice and rocking so that it stays in my heart etched forever. With all this hope I just want to thank God for making me join this coll when i had various other options for me...because of which i could make some real good friends and now i want to proudly say that ITME is 'my' coll and i will keep on cherishing each and every moment spent there.
Yelling loudly,
But there is no sound.
There is no one here,
Nobody to be with me.
On this lonely night,
I walk the streets.
I look at the ground,
And watch every step I take.
I stop under a streetlight,
And I start to say.
Forever I am alone,
In the dark, in the night.
If I knew life was going to be like this,
So dead, so lonely.
I would have ended it,
Left this world, been gone forever.
Who would be there to notice?
Nobody, not one soul.
Because there is no one here,
Which leaves me so alone.
--Clint Sheppard
People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges but these high walls make one find oneself!! “We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.”
"aaye re chute aaye pujor ghondho esheche.......".
Yes,pujo is yet again knocking at the door,just 2 more days n the festival will start when the entire city will be celebrating for the same cause!The entire city gets decked up as if its her wedding.Though there is a lot of rush of people pushing here and there like some maniacs.....yet its fun to be one of such insane lot. One goes into the city and sees queues of people,foodies,stalls,pandals,beautiful lighting.Any outsider mite make him wonder...are people of Kolkata just crazy,how can they stand for hours at a stretch,waste so much of time and money for five days if not more!!But i think its always not so nice to be sensible.I think its fine to live for ourselves for five days,to be a little selfish and do things whatever we want to in these five days.Tho 'addas' with frnds is waste of time...tho spending money on so much of unnecessary stuff is baseless...tho standing in long queues is such a wate of energy......i think its fine for we Kolkatans as we sometimes like thinking from heart and not from head!!And i think its worth living this way.......coz "jeelo harpal khusiyon mein,kyunki kya pata kal ho na ho..." I don't know whether i will be able to be a part of such celebration next year or not because i will be moving out of this city next year,so i want to celebrate this puja with fun and frolic.Wishing happy pujas to every one.Have fun guys. : )
My training at HP has come to its end.I dont know y i m feeling a little sad coz there was nothing over there to feel sad about on leaving but if i think over it n ponder for sometime i see a few reasons for my feeling a little low. First,i had got used to tht place coz i had gone n attended classes almost everydy except for the days i was a little sick. Second,it was the first time i have felt wat it is having a hectic day.I felt as if i was working in some company,going out at 6:30 morning then after classes doing project with frnds till 8pm!! Third,my class mates over there were really very sweet n nice.There were students from BCET Durgapur,CIT,SIT,Netaji Subhas n ofcourse my own ITMEians.It was really nice to be around with new people,talk to them......we all had become sooo frndly tht we used to pull each others leg,crack jokes,have fun. Fourth our Sir was more of a brotherly figure than a teacher.He is a very amiable person n we all liked him.He even taught us much better than the teachers at other classes( thts the feedback we had got frm other frnd in other classes) n finally I really enjoyed working for the project with my 5 other group members.It was nice sitting together n working in a team.:) I dont know how much i have learnt from this training n project....all i can say is tht i am gonna miss my life @ hp which according to me was beautiful!!
I still remember the day vividly when my friends were requesting me a lot to stay back @ hostel after semester exams,but i was missing home so much that i didn't listen to them.The thought is coming in my mind becoz 'I M MISSING MY HOSTEL'.........very wierd in my case n i kno my frnds wud agree to that!!!It has not even been one full month of holiday and i m already missing my hostel! i never thot i wud be feeling this way becoz whenever we talk about hostel....we say only about everything bad! i myself remember always complaining about bad food n dirty rooms n toilets but i am really missing each wall of that place,every tasteless chicken,"vulcanized" roti,watery dal,all kinds of insects....everything.As the days of coll life n specially the hostel life is ending.....i think i am getting more n more attached to it.But isnt this what i wanted......didnt i want to come out of a place where people are so insensitive,so professional,so political......didnt i??yes,i did....but then Y,y,y i am feeling this way....i cant say!!Life has so much of mysteries!!I dont believe i am saying this but i think hostel is not that bad.....i think not bad at all!! :)Whatever food they give.......i just like having it with frnds....sitting together n gossiping almost about everything!Whatever type of insect mite come....i just like yelling n screaming till my roomie helps it to get eternity!However dirty may the toilets be.....i just like acting like detective holmes to find out who the culprit is!However political people there be.....i just like learning from them!!!I think nothing is bad......it's always the way we think......so i am glad to say again.....LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL...n so is my hostel!! :)
Its my first day here @ the blogger's lane and this day has only come because it has been raining for the last three days and I have no work other than sleeping.Thought of trying out something new,so here I am ,all set to type down my thoughts.
We kolkattans have been waiting for this rain for long but now that it is here and has been pouring in buckets,we all feel like singing "rain rain go away....come again another day....".
The roads are blocked becoz of water logging;there is very less transport on the roads n so is the crowd.Children are seen at home rather than in schools and moms are working hard coz the maids have taken their leave.Such a scene takes place very rarely here in the CITY OF JOY,but it has been happening from three days n now we say "NO MORE".We all want to return back to our normal lives but i guess RAIN GOD is trying to test wether we can survive in abnormal n adverse situations!! People who are well paid and living in high raised buildings,flats,well built houses, can easily survive such conditions of flood,expensive food stuff,expensive transport!But what about the people who are living in houses fully drenched,who eat with what they income each day and are not being able to go out for the rains!Befor putting in the test universally on man,has God thought of it!!I guess the answer lies in the news of numerous people dying becoz of the rains.Hmmmmm.....philosophical indeed! Its not for me to decide.....its not for u to decide......its not for anyone to decide.....except HIM! As Nature has ruled the survival of the fittest....what all we can do as of now is to stay fit,try to enjoye the rains as the trees,the leaves,the chirping birds are doing and say "life is beautiful".......sigh!!
